I try to keep things light and fun on this blog. Nobody wants to hear about dirty diapers, or fussy spells, or the general crud detail that comes with having a baby in the house. Certainly, once those things are done with, I generally forget about them right away, while I remember the cute little moments forever.
However, this week has been really hard. Our nanny started work on Monday, to give Jonathan a chance to get used to the new routine. Right away, it was difficult, because every time I left the room, even for a moment, Jonathan would start to wail and reach out his arms for me. He wanted nothing to do with the nanny. I had warned her in advance that I haven't been very successful at getting Jonathan to nap in his crib. We talked over a strategy. He can fall asleep on his own without crying - he does it every night and has for months. So we decided to let him cry in his crib until he tired himself out.
I guess Jonathan hasn't read the same books as we have, because right from the start he seemed resolved to outlast us. I spent most of the mornings up in the office and the nanny would play with Jonathan and Cara until they got very sleepy. She'd carry Jonathan up to his crib, give him his napping bear and put him in his napping suit. And instantly, as soon as she laid him down, he'd start to wail. She'd check on him in five minutes or so and he'd just wail louder. We carefully followed the expert advice; she'd go back in to check on him and reassure him at longer and longer intervals. He'd cry for ninety straight minutes and then finally fall asleep for twenty. I spent most of the same time in the office, biting my fingernails and doing a fair amount of crying myself.
Still, except for the naps, things started to get a little easier. Jonathan got used to our nanny and started playing with (well, nibbling on) Cara. Yesterday afternoon, when I came back from the store, he was giving nanny a Jonathan special big wet face-eating kiss. He would look up when I left the room, but didn't fuss and kept on playing. He was so tired in the evenings, though! He'd be rubbing his eyes and trying to stay awake at 6pm, instead of his usual 7:30 bedtime. Last night he slept for eleven hours straight. I was worried I'd never see my little guy once I started working next week.
Today, with Cara on vacation, the nanny decided to try a new strategy. She and Jonathan played until he started rubbing his eyes. He fussed and lifted his arms for a cuddle. He gave her a few more kisses and then buried his head on her shoulder and fell asleep. She carefully eased him down onto the couch. And while I'm writing this, he's fast asleep there, with nanny sitting right next to him so he doesn't roll off. Tomorrow I will try putting him on a blanket on the floor, so I can move away for a little if needed. It may not be napping in a crib, but I think it's a pretty good compromise.